Psalm 138:8 says,
“The Lord will accomplish what concerns me; Your loving-kindness, O Lord, is
everlasting; Do not forsake the works of Your hands.”
Graduating class of
2013. Super excited to be able to leave the house and head out to somewhere
completely different. I can’t wait to go to say the least. I’m writing this
post in my current mindset praying and asking that others dealing with the same
issues would learn to love and experience the joy of glorifying God.
I’ve written on
loneliness a little bit before and probably just talked about how it’s no fun
but God is in control, but right now as I write this I’m in the midst of
experiencing the deepest type of humanistic loneliness ever in my life. It’s
not a shortage of friends to be honest, because I have some great friends right
now, but it’s the absence of having someone
besides me that loves me.
Can I be honest? It
feels so insanely stupid to write about how much I want to be in a relationship
with some girl. Being somewhat a man, it doesn’t feel good to express my
deepest weakness, but God works in our weaknesses. I feel like this time in my
life is a desert for several reasons. I leave for school in the fall, so when I
say “this time” I mean the end of spring into summer.
In Galatians, Paul
says that he spent sometime away after his conversion before going into the
ministry. It’s so easy to understand that he needed to be prepared for the
ministry that he was about to have. In that time, he was being trained by the
Lord to be ready for stoning, hatred, denial, and other types of persecution.
God also led Moses and Israel into the desert and wilderness before going into
the Promise Land so that they could experience the goodness of who He was and
so they could learn to rely only on Him.
That’s what this time
in my life is. My Dad and I both believe that I’m only ready to get married
when I am fully satisfied in Christ and look to Him alone for my worth. Now,
that’s saying a lot, and really may not ever be completed in this lifetime.
Might as well suit up now for single’s ministry, ay?
While helping teach
a parenting class for teens, I was reminded that the end goal is not a
girlfriend or marriage, but instead a closer love for God and just to be near
Him throughout life. Right now, I’m learning that if I can’t be satisfied in
God, than I’m not ready to pour into my wife all the things that she needs. I
need to be completely secure in my Christian identity before having a
completely effective ministry to my wife and even to others. So God bids me to rely
solely on Him.
I ask for your
prayers and also that you would rejoice in this time with me. God is drawing me
closer to His heart, and even though it hurts like crazy, it’s going to be so
worth it. We were created to glorify God in all that we do. I’m so ready to do
that more and to praise Him with all that I am.
Maybe you’re finding
yourself in a state of loneliness or even absence from the “Presence of God.”
I’d love to remind you that the presence of God has not left you, but instead
God chases you even while you are sleeping. He is with you day in night
pursuing your heart and asking that you’d not only give him some room but complete clearance.
That’s what the
lonely is for. –Forsake All
